Dear rugbymurf:
From my readings of the postings on this website, it appears that TDRL re-evals vary from Servicemeber to Servicemember, place to place, etc. I get left with an impression that there doesn't appear to be a uniformity of standards, or it appears that there is alot of subjectivity in the re-eval for PTSD sufferers.
I have one friend who was placed on TDRL with 50% (PTSD), who went in on their re-eval and got knocked down to 20%. He was told that because he was attending school full-time, that he warranted a reduction in rating (must be improved!). Never mind that he had special tutors and special help at school, and spent many more hours than is usual just to get a passing grade of "pass/fail" or a "C". And these extra efforts was from a guy that used to be a practically "straight A" student before PTSD.
It seemed to me that he was penalized for pressing on in his fight and trying to improve his lot in life. And no, he didn't work at a job because he spent his time just trying to get through school with passing grades.
I know this is just one Servicemembers experience with PTSD/TDRL, and that this ought not to color the entire spectrum. Still, I can't help but wonder about this myself and the possibility of a "Catch 22".
I guess I'll find out in a few months from now when I get placed on TDRL.
All I know is to keep taking your meds, keep seeing your Mental Health professionals on a regular basis, and keep your paper trail well documented.
Perhaps others here on this site can shed some more light on this and their experience with PTSD/TDRL.
Keep your chin up Grrl! This system can drag you down sometimes, and with PTSD, some days are just barely tolerable. But remember, every day is a new day - and we must make the best of it as we can.
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I know this sounds corny, but I have some positive sayings on my bathroom mirror that I have to look at when I go in there. Some are just single words, some are quotes. Sometimes they help my head and heart when I think all is dark and lost. I also have cut out pictures of places I'd like to visit and have them on a piece of paper to remind me - give me hope - a future - a goal if you will. Don't know if this will help you, but I just thought I'd share this. But the idea is for you to find out what trips your triggers - what inspires you - and make a word or picture paper - or both - that captures these elements of hope and future and inspiration. For me, there have been times that just looking at these things in my bathroom works better than a Big Pharma pill, and helps put things in perspective.
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