Hey all, Marine POG Sergeant here with almost 10 years of service looking for some peace of mind from any expert advice available. I know no answer is definite when it comes to PEB results but I'm hoping someone who has been around long enough has noticed any specific trends for Marines. You can skip to the questions if you don't want to read everything.
Background:
I'm on a PEB for a shoulder injury that occurred almost 4 years ago. It started as a laberal tear but has quickly become something more severe. Up until last year I went thru physical therapy but was still running PFT's, CFT's and doing all the standard annual training in full pain but with the degradation of performance. I was "sucking it up" like we are all expected to but now I can barely sit for long periods without my back hurting, move my neck without it popping or lift my arm up higher than shoulder height without a shooting pain down my left arm.
Fast forward to last year, new duty station where I finally ditched my pride and did all the light duty and limdu and another round of physical therapy as prescribed. Unfortunately things did not get better and as soon as surgery was recommended by my ortho I was also referred to go on a PEB since my contract is almost up.
This brings us to today. I have no option for surgery at the moment since I'm on the C&P portion of the PEB and I'm scared I might be found FIT (since I do mainly have a desk job) but unable to reenlist due to inability to pass annual training. I find it unsettling to think that I might be separated without severance and with a messed up shoulder for the rest of my life.
This leaves me to my questions and uncertainty in all this:
1. What are the trends in non-combat MOS Marines being found fit? Since most of us are "riflemen" first (and as a POG I know that's a loaded statement) are decisions based on their ability to be combat ready? If not, is my inability to pass a PFT/CFT, shoot on the range, effectively lead my Marines at PT, and go out to the field considered? How do they expect me to be eligible for promotion and reenlistment if they find me fit but unable to perform?
2. My CO turned my NMA in already and stated that I'm a good performer of my MOS but I cannot do any of the physical requirements that are expected of a full duty Marine. Did he hurt me by saying that I do my job well? I do the work but I'm in constantly working in pain and have to pop 100mg of ultram before working, they don't know that.
3. How do you deal with this stress? It sucks having your fate being decided by a handful of people you've never met. It really takes the control out of your life and it's driving me nuts. Also, all the C&P appointments I've had have me driving 2-3 hours outside my city on weekends (I'm at an independent duty) and it's starting to take its toll. It feels like I haven't relaxed in weeks.
4. There is a sense of shame involved. I was not willfully referred to a PEB and didn't even know what it was until a month ago. I know there are guys and gals out there with crazier injuries than mine and it makes me second guess the whole process. I feel like I'm not worthy of it and just embarrassing myself. When I go to my doc and C&P I can feel judgement about how my injury effects my MOS. It's weird. At one point I almost believed I wasn't even hurt (even though MRI shows I am) and just being "WAB". Has anyone felt this effect before?
Anyway thanks for reading and sorry about the wall of text.
Background:
I'm on a PEB for a shoulder injury that occurred almost 4 years ago. It started as a laberal tear but has quickly become something more severe. Up until last year I went thru physical therapy but was still running PFT's, CFT's and doing all the standard annual training in full pain but with the degradation of performance. I was "sucking it up" like we are all expected to but now I can barely sit for long periods without my back hurting, move my neck without it popping or lift my arm up higher than shoulder height without a shooting pain down my left arm.
Fast forward to last year, new duty station where I finally ditched my pride and did all the light duty and limdu and another round of physical therapy as prescribed. Unfortunately things did not get better and as soon as surgery was recommended by my ortho I was also referred to go on a PEB since my contract is almost up.
This brings us to today. I have no option for surgery at the moment since I'm on the C&P portion of the PEB and I'm scared I might be found FIT (since I do mainly have a desk job) but unable to reenlist due to inability to pass annual training. I find it unsettling to think that I might be separated without severance and with a messed up shoulder for the rest of my life.
This leaves me to my questions and uncertainty in all this:
1. What are the trends in non-combat MOS Marines being found fit? Since most of us are "riflemen" first (and as a POG I know that's a loaded statement) are decisions based on their ability to be combat ready? If not, is my inability to pass a PFT/CFT, shoot on the range, effectively lead my Marines at PT, and go out to the field considered? How do they expect me to be eligible for promotion and reenlistment if they find me fit but unable to perform?
2. My CO turned my NMA in already and stated that I'm a good performer of my MOS but I cannot do any of the physical requirements that are expected of a full duty Marine. Did he hurt me by saying that I do my job well? I do the work but I'm in constantly working in pain and have to pop 100mg of ultram before working, they don't know that.
3. How do you deal with this stress? It sucks having your fate being decided by a handful of people you've never met. It really takes the control out of your life and it's driving me nuts. Also, all the C&P appointments I've had have me driving 2-3 hours outside my city on weekends (I'm at an independent duty) and it's starting to take its toll. It feels like I haven't relaxed in weeks.
4. There is a sense of shame involved. I was not willfully referred to a PEB and didn't even know what it was until a month ago. I know there are guys and gals out there with crazier injuries than mine and it makes me second guess the whole process. I feel like I'm not worthy of it and just embarrassing myself. When I go to my doc and C&P I can feel judgement about how my injury effects my MOS. It's weird. At one point I almost believed I wasn't even hurt (even though MRI shows I am) and just being "WAB". Has anyone felt this effect before?
Anyway thanks for reading and sorry about the wall of text.
