Venting-----My package was sent to the board on 20 Oct. This morning I was notified that I was found Presumed Fit--Fit to continue on active duty. As disturbing as that finding is to me it's the paragraph on the second page from the board which makes my blood boil and steam come out of my ears...I'll share it here and maybe sharing misery will somehow make me feel better:
"SM entered IDES 6/27/16 and has approved retirement date of 4/1/17. Case submitted for GI symptoms that began in 2010 and for mental health symptoms that stemmed from the death of her husband in 2005 and her own experiences with casualty reports while deployed in support of OEF 2010 and 2011. These conditions HAVE NOT prematurely terminated her career and she is therefore deemed to be PFIT."
The way this is written makes me feel like my incredible amount of suffering over the course of years, giving every thing I had to my life in uniform at the expense of EVERYTHING out of uniform, sick, in pain, severe chronic major depression and severe, chronic PTSD with dissociative features, yup you got it right board, NONE of that effected my decision to prematurely end my career. Actually the reason I requested retirement was I was suicidal, disconnected, isolated, misunderstood, etc. sure glad I wasted my time doing this board. Now I get to do the va process on my own and hope it somehow works out...not that anything EVER works out for me. Ever. I'll be journaling a letter to the board members.
"SM entered IDES 6/27/16 and has approved retirement date of 4/1/17. Case submitted for GI symptoms that began in 2010 and for mental health symptoms that stemmed from the death of her husband in 2005 and her own experiences with casualty reports while deployed in support of OEF 2010 and 2011. These conditions HAVE NOT prematurely terminated her career and she is therefore deemed to be PFIT."
The way this is written makes me feel like my incredible amount of suffering over the course of years, giving every thing I had to my life in uniform at the expense of EVERYTHING out of uniform, sick, in pain, severe chronic major depression and severe, chronic PTSD with dissociative features, yup you got it right board, NONE of that effected my decision to prematurely end my career. Actually the reason I requested retirement was I was suicidal, disconnected, isolated, misunderstood, etc. sure glad I wasted my time doing this board. Now I get to do the va process on my own and hope it somehow works out...not that anything EVER works out for me. Ever. I'll be journaling a letter to the board members.